“That is, I have a lot of emotions,” says Beatrice Laus, the day before her debut full-length album drops. “I’m excited, but I’m pretty scared, and I also know how relieved it will be when it finally comes out. Like I’m about to give birth. To everyone. I’m saying, but I feel like I’m about to give birth. “
Fortunately, Raus, known as Beabadoobee, is emotional. After plunging into the scene with her bedroom pop sound in 2018, a 20-year-old Filipino-born, British-raised artist released her 90s-inspired alternative rock collection, Fake It Flowers. Other young women are trying to understand it all.
“It’s easy because I’m a girl. I’m just talking about what I’ve experienced. After all, we’re all pretty, so it inevitably feels like having something to do with another girl like me. It’s about the same, “she says in a zoom call from her boyfriend’s bedroom in West London. “We all have menstruation. We are all experiencing the same thing and writing” Fake It Flowers “was an opportunity to tell ourselves that any f–k I wanted was okay. felt. If I’m frustrated, if I’m a whimsical b—-h, ironic person, that’s okay, my feelings are valid. I can learn from my mistakes and so on. I think it’s important to get a message to a girl like me. I feel that there are many internalized misogyny in society. And especially as a young Asian woman, I feel that I have a very specific perception of how to act online. And I think I’m trying to break those boundaries and show everyone that it’s okay. “
Raus moved to London at the age of three and grew up in Camden. In Camden, the vast local culture has had a huge impact on her. She enrolled in all girls’ Catholic schools and was eventually kicked out. In the midst of many negatives, she found a group of friends who introduced artists such as Smith and The Cure, the beginning of a musical journey. ..
“I was really depressed when I was kicked out,” she says. “My dad bought me a guitar, so I started playing. The first song I’ve ever written was’coffee’,” she said in a breakout hit. From there she discovered pop-punk and fell into artists such as Green Day, Blink-182, and The Smashing Pumpkins, digging into “Rabbit Holes” to create “Fake It Flowers.”
It was the process of getting to a place where she feels comfortable enough for someone who can honestly write about such an experience through music (is it relevant to your teen?).
“When I was trying to fit, I felt I had to force myself like all the other girls, and boys to like me, and that was very stupid. Or I was almost embarrassed about my culture and who I am, “she says. “But I was able to find this wonderful group of friends who made me feel comfortable and proud of who I was, where I came from and what kind of music I listened to.”
She is still accustomed to the idea that music is her profession.
“I never thought this would be a career. It’s still like that in my head.” Oh my god, is this even a career? Is this real life? “She says. “I obviously like to write songs. It helps me mentally. It’s like a cure to me. And I think I saw it as a mutually beneficial situation. I The fact that the music helped others helped me. I thought, “I can keep it going.” I want to do as much as I can, but I also want to be a childcare worker.
“I’m starting to think about what I want to do with music next. I’m very proud of” Fake It Flowers “but I’m always dissatisfied. But I can’t wait to get to the next thing, and what do you want it to look like? “She continues. “And I think there are all the eras I release. Fake It Flowers was like this Juergen Teller atmosphere and I missed it very much. I want to refresh the next one. I will. “
Meanwhile, she needs to celebrate the drop of her first album.
“”[My friends and I] Maybe you’ll hang out and feel great. “